ups and downs

Dear J

u are never alone

in a crowd all by yourself?

don't u see me walking beside u?

don't u feel your hand in mine?

don't u feel whatever burden u carry lighten?

because I'm here carrying it with u.

I mean what are friends for if not for this.

xoxo :)

:)

Even though u don't realize it

U cast my doubts away lil by lil

Just by doing what u do everyday

It's the lil things that matter most to me when it comes to u.

Thank you.

doubts

When I ask You to give me strength

I know I should cast all doubts aside

And surrender my life to You

Full of faith that

You will guide me

Through whatever

Doubts will make me like waves is the ocean

Constantly tossed around

I know

Because at this moment

This is where I am at in life

But give me time

One day at a time

Hoping that the day will come

When I am at total peace

With life

-I believe-

Please.

Stop.

Calling.

Him.

Thank you.

what really matters

Life is at its weakest
When
There’s more
Doubt than trust
But
Life is at its strongest
When you learn
How to trust
In spite of
The doubts …

I want to achieve this. For us. Because I love u.

too much to handle

How can I go on as if it doesn't bother me? How can I pretend nothing is going on? Maybe nothing is but there is something really bugging me about this. That I can't seem to let it go. Can't seem to get it out of my mind. Can't seem to let it NOT affect me.

I tried talking to u about this. I tried making u understand. But u just brush it off. Fine. Brush it off. But mind u, it's not making things better. Now u just left me alone with the million thoughts occupying my mind 'til I can't think straight. I feel I have lost perspective of myself. Of u. Of us.

It's not that I don't trust u. I do. But she is a total different story. And your history together. How can I challenge that? Am I just a temporary substitute 'til she changes to suit u?

Because that is how I feel atm. And I think I really deserve better.

what is the big deal?

why couldn't u just tell me it was her.

hurt me how?

she can't hurt me.

but u definitely can.