Dear Malaysia,
I shall be coming home to u and all the splendid things that u have to offer very soon. I know I have very high demands seeing as I only get to see u once a year for only 2 months but so far u have never failed to please me beyond my expectations. I want stability this time but it is hard to put faith in something that has burned me before. Let this holiday renew my faith and evaporate my doubts. Looking forward to seeing u very soon.
A very loyal Malaysian,
Angie
ps, if u dont mind I would prefer if it was not too hot to the point of unbearable. Thank you. :) Malaysia boleh!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
learning to let go
Ppl grow..ppl change..for the better or for the worse..it is all subjective.
This entry is especially for u..I loved last night..juz the 3 of us it was like old times and it felt absolutely marvellous..u dnt know how much I love u girls oh SO much!! But I don't know why when I go back to ur place it's different. I don't feel like I'm able to be myself. I have tried. I dont expect u to understand coz I doubt u will be able to. I juz dont want u to misunderstand the reasons behind my decision. I'm not running away from u. Whenever u need me I'm juz a phonecall away and I will always try to be there for u. If I can I will! I juz like when I have the absolute freedom to be myself. And at ur place is one of the place where I juz cant seem to be.
On a totally different note..I am such a KLUTZ. Until now I am still wondering what was I thinking of when I opened the door right into my face..more specifically right into my right eye. Really I just cannot seem to figure it out. I juz know walking towards the cab..then opening the door and then before I even knew what happened BAM!! All I knew was right eye HURTSSS..right eye blurr meaning lense lari. When I arrived at Subhz and was fishing my eye for the contact, I noticed I had a small cut below my eye. DAMN. Then, when I actually found the lense and took it out I realized it was torn. #$%^&*()_(*&^%$#$%^&^%$#!!!! After that for the next hour I was fishing around for the other part of my right lense. It has yet to be found. But I have reasoned it feel out when the "BAMM" occurred or during the cab ride when I was in shock since I kept rubbing my eye. Yup like I said no explanation, only that I am a total klutz. :/
On another note, I am a very simple girl. Very easy please. I dont have many expectations but that does not mean that I have none. And towards those certain expectations I know I can be very demanding. I am a very indecisive person but when I know what I want MEANS I WANT IT. But I can be reasonable. Might not seem so to u but everyone is entitled to one's opinion. In any case if u try to change this outlook of mine, it would be more productive if u please go get a life. As for me, I have one and am very happy with it. A happy Angie is a very likeable one. :)
This entry is especially for u..I loved last night..juz the 3 of us it was like old times and it felt absolutely marvellous..u dnt know how much I love u girls oh SO much!! But I don't know why when I go back to ur place it's different. I don't feel like I'm able to be myself. I have tried. I dont expect u to understand coz I doubt u will be able to. I juz dont want u to misunderstand the reasons behind my decision. I'm not running away from u. Whenever u need me I'm juz a phonecall away and I will always try to be there for u. If I can I will! I juz like when I have the absolute freedom to be myself. And at ur place is one of the place where I juz cant seem to be.
On a totally different note..I am such a KLUTZ. Until now I am still wondering what was I thinking of when I opened the door right into my face..more specifically right into my right eye. Really I just cannot seem to figure it out. I juz know walking towards the cab..then opening the door and then before I even knew what happened BAM!! All I knew was right eye HURTSSS..right eye blurr meaning lense lari. When I arrived at Subhz and was fishing my eye for the contact, I noticed I had a small cut below my eye. DAMN. Then, when I actually found the lense and took it out I realized it was torn. #$%^&*()_(*&^%$#$%^&^%$#!!!! After that for the next hour I was fishing around for the other part of my right lense. It has yet to be found. But I have reasoned it feel out when the "BAMM" occurred or during the cab ride when I was in shock since I kept rubbing my eye. Yup like I said no explanation, only that I am a total klutz. :/
On another note, I am a very simple girl. Very easy please. I dont have many expectations but that does not mean that I have none. And towards those certain expectations I know I can be very demanding. I am a very indecisive person but when I know what I want MEANS I WANT IT. But I can be reasonable. Might not seem so to u but everyone is entitled to one's opinion. In any case if u try to change this outlook of mine, it would be more productive if u please go get a life. As for me, I have one and am very happy with it. A happy Angie is a very likeable one. :)
Friday, June 12, 2009
invalid
I have gotten too used to u
always being around
always doing things for me
I have forgotten how to be independant
what am I gonna do when ur gone?
always being around
always doing things for me
I have forgotten how to be independant
what am I gonna do when ur gone?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
regrets.
should I have started earlier?
well maybe.
but then even now as I am studying
I am beginning to forget what I studied a few days ago
now I dont even want to try recalling
scared to get a panic attack
when I realize juz how little I remember
He does not put obstacles in front of us which He does not think we can overcome
yes I CAN DO IT. but only with His help and guidance. always.
well maybe.
but then even now as I am studying
I am beginning to forget what I studied a few days ago
now I dont even want to try recalling
scared to get a panic attack
when I realize juz how little I remember
He does not put obstacles in front of us which He does not think we can overcome
yes I CAN DO IT. but only with His help and guidance. always.
Monday, June 8, 2009
excuses NOT!
it's coz this place does not have a 24/7 hour library!
yup..!! that's the reason I'm not studying.
soooo NOT my fault.
:)
yup..!! that's the reason I'm not studying.
soooo NOT my fault.
:)
Friday, June 5, 2009
sometimes you still manage to surprise me..
'you say he does not do anything wrong. fine. but mebe he also never does anything right either.'
-you
-you
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
torn
If chance was based on a toss of a coin
Hmmm...
It's not that I do not know what I want
I DO
It's just that I have learned over time
Patience is a virtue
They say
Time waits for no man
But mebe man can wait this time out?
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
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