learning to let go

Ppl grow..ppl change..for the better or for the worse..it is all subjective.

This entry is especially for u..I loved last night..juz the 3 of us it was like old times and it felt absolutely marvellous..u dnt know how much I love u girls oh SO much!! But I don't know why when I go back to ur place it's different. I don't feel like I'm able to be myself. I have tried. I dont expect u to understand coz I doubt u will be able to. I juz dont want u to misunderstand the reasons behind my decision. I'm not running away from u. Whenever u need me I'm juz a phonecall away and I will always try to be there for u. If I can I will! I juz like when I have the absolute freedom to be myself. And at ur place is one of the place where I juz cant seem to be.

On a totally different note..I am such a KLUTZ. Until now I am still wondering what was I thinking of when I opened the door right into my face..more specifically right into my right eye. Really I just cannot seem to figure it out. I juz know walking towards the cab..then opening the door and then before I even knew what happened BAM!! All I knew was right eye HURTSSS..right eye blurr meaning lense lari. When I arrived at Subhz and was fishing my eye for the contact, I noticed I had a small cut below my eye. DAMN. Then, when I actually found the lense and took it out I realized it was torn. #$%^&*()_(*&^%$#$%^&^%$#!!!! After that for the next hour I was fishing around for the other part of my right lense. It has yet to be found. But I have reasoned it feel out when the "BAMM" occurred or during the cab ride when I was in shock since I kept rubbing my eye. Yup like I said no explanation, only that I am a total klutz. :/

On another note, I am a very simple girl. Very easy please. I dont have many expectations but that does not mean that I have none. And towards those certain expectations I know I can be very demanding. I am a very indecisive person but when I know what I want MEANS I WANT IT. But I can be reasonable. Might not seem so to u but everyone is entitled to one's opinion. In any case if u try to change this outlook of mine, it would be more productive if u please go get a life. As for me, I have one and am very happy with it. A happy Angie is a very likeable one. :)