too little too late

U just do not understand me. And maybe I just do not understand u. Or maybe at one point I guess I just gave up trying to understand because I just can't bend anymore. U cannot blame me for giving up. U cannot guilt me into it. I have tried so hard for so long but when it did matter u took it forgranted. I have sacrificed so much for u. I know u may not realized but I have changed so much as a person since u came along. I'm not saying in a bad way but I just can't go on like this any longer. Sometimes I come up for a breather and that itself becomes an issue. The things I have done for u may seem minute and insignificant to u but if u were in my shoes I cannot even say with confidence u would have done the same for me. U might say that 'of course I would have' but when push comes to shove, only then will the truth reveal itself.

I'm not giving up totally because I still care. But I'm not gonna put that extra effort just because u think I should. But after all the effort I have put into this since the beginning I am trying my best to maintain it til the end. I just need u to try to understand me as the PERSON I am. Accept me as me. If not it's gonna be a longggg few weeks ahead. I will not deny I have changed. But then neither can u.