i swallowed a frog!

what's with my voice u ask?? now..let me ask u..what's with my voice?? *lifts eyebrows* i think it's sexy..u don't like it..i guess you're lucky then u don't sound like me :)

i've been in a very pissy mood these past few days..PMS-ing?? sometimes i think PMS has become such an overused excuse it juz doesnt carry any weight anymore..u'd think after we gurls have been going thru it every month that we'd have better control over our hormones..and so yea it might be impossible to directly control our hormones consciously..but what i mean to say is more control of how we react to the way our hormones make us feel..it's like when u see a ball coming directly at u..at first u might not know what hit u..but eventually when u see a ball coming u'll duck..BUT wat some of u especially guys don't understand is..oK now i'm juz speaking for myself..some gurls might agree with me..others might not..the best way to know what is exactly going on in their minds..ask them.

anyway..my excuse for being PMS-sy is sometimes it's juz too much work to have total control of myself..the way i act or react in situations especially when my hormonal balance is off the charts..so much work sometimes it's so much easier to let them take over..of coz there will be consequences for all my actions..I'm not trying to put the total blame on PMS..I take full responsibility for all my actions..ALL of them..it's juz sometimes when i do not have mood to layan..do not push it ok..leave me alone..if i do not have mood to explain myself..gimme a break..eventually when i feel better i will tell u everything u want to know..all in good time..u juz got to know when to back off..

sometimes there are juz no answers..or explanation..why am i doing this?? why am i feeling this way?? even I do not always have the answers..all i know is i AM at the moment feeling that way..like today since i got back from the carnival i juz felt depressed and down..i juz wanted to do absolutely nothing..so i drowned myself in all 6 remaining episdoes of 'One Tree Hill'..somehow this particular series has a way of making me feel better..during the end of last summer when i was lower than low..it was 'One Tree Hill' whom i turned to too..funny huh..it's my own way of therapy..but now that i finished all..i juz don't know what to do..i want to do nothing..but i'm bored juz doing nothing..(ps..i nv said i was an easy person to understand!)..

-analysing session-

topic of discussion : depressed & down

reason for feeling this way --> mainly because the blueberry pie i reserved was given away..accidentally of course..but still it didn't make me feel a whole lot better..ching hua u shud be proud..ur pie was so good it made me emotional! :)

part where i also can't explain --> now don't get me wrong..i was upset but of coz not at jane OR ching hua..too many ppl + too many orders = chaoz..it's normal to lose count..i don't blame anyone..i don't..i was juz upset la..it's normal..but the disturbing part..the extent to which i was upset..i thank dev and arveen for putting up with me the entire time..lolz..eventhough i know they don't understand how i could make a piece of cake upset me that much..now..here is the part where i say..PMS..because even i can't explain how..i can only tell u it juz did..

solution --> One Tree Hill

still don't get me?? oh well..join the club..i've been trying for the past 20 plus years of my life and what an adventure it has been! all u dear bored pancakes out there are alwaz welcomed to join the ride! that is........if u dare..lolz..don't worry..it's FOC!