sweet sweet victory

i saw Him today!!! and u know what..I'm over him..I amm!! YESS!!!! *jumping up n down with joy* oh joy joy!!!!! ok i know i'm suppose to be SOOO over him like soooo long ago..but u know after everything that we have been through you juz cant blame me for holding back some of the feelings i had..it's not like i wanted to..it's juz hard to let go sometimes..but time heals all..it's true..a month or so ago..if someone had told me that..in my mind ---> BULLSHIT!!! nv whud i expect to be able to be completely over him..which i am i am i AMMM nowww!!!! wooohoooo..i need to celebrate..!! ok i know i always say that i am over him blah blahh..but ppl alwaz tell me life is what u make it..and if i tell ppl and myself over and over again that i am..eventually i will be!! which i AM noww..haahhahahahhahahahaa..oh joyous joyyy..

how do i know?? easy..when u stand in front of the person..and u dont wish for hell to swallow him up..you dont wish for him to trip and fall..and gawd no..u dont wish for him to sweep u off your feet once again..u dont wish to hide behind all his sugar-coated lies..actually u dont feel nothing..i dont mean feel numb..juz indifferent..no grudges..no hopes..nothing..MAN it felt goood!!! *relieve*

you know how when u see a random stranger and then he kinda catches ur eye..even more electrifying when u exchange one of those eye contact thingy magig..it's not a typo..i mean magig NOT magic..anyway where was I..right right..then he juz refuses to exit ur mind..completely hogs ur thinking space..u keep replaying over n over the moment u saw him..the moment he caught u looking..blah blah..then this will probably go on for a few days..maybe even weeks..it becomes even more intense when somehow u cant seem to run into him..like they say absence makes the heart grow fonder..but then the next time when u actually DO meet the person..reality *BANGS* hits u..he turns out to be nothing like what u expected at all..it could be for the better..it could be for the worse..but that's life..it's a 50-50 chance..u got to be willing to take the risks..sooo..are YOU game??

p/s, it would help if u didnt raise the expectation bar too high..we are all only human..and i for one know how imperfect i can be..but b4 u start listing my countless flaws..plz take a good look in the mirror 1st! :)